An excerpt from a letter for my mentor…

...... However, honestly speaking, I suppose I can't finish that bond.

I'm persistently looking for another job that's related with writing, or with the course that I took -- AB Mass Comm. I trust the Lord God for whatever plans He has for me though.

I'm still with this telecom industry for now. I know I would have to defray the bond if I resign. I won't do it though unless I find the alternate job.

But what I'm feeling right now is exactly the same feeling I felt during the days that I took BS Nursing. There are certain words that I hear from my heart... "First choice is not always the best!"

Reborn


ONE MORNING, I’VE REALIZED the course of my previous undertakings...

Abruptly, I’ve been learning to love Him more than I could have ever imagined because for others, I am a blessing...

Slowly, the Lord God shall change me just as how He suddenly touched my heart to conjecture about the real purpose of my living....

Letter to my young preacher…

Dear preacher,

I WOULD LIKE TO express my sincere apology for my behavior last night. I’ve been very stubborn, rude and spoiled. Concurrently, I’ve just been honest to you.

I know you were trying your hardest to convince me that my self-centered self-healing won’t work. I know you want me to be close to your God just like the way you are. I know you want me to read “our book” – to run the race to the end. I know you’re so much sincere and persevered to set me from my depression, to cast all my fears, surrender my reservations to the Lord and trust only in Him.

The trauma I’m facing…

"THIS TRAUMA I’M FACING isn't easy. And God weeps that it hurts me so; but it's allowed to shape my heart, so that in His likeness I would grow..."

Two are better off than one…

"TWO ARE BETTER OFF than one, because together they can work more effectively. If one of them falls down, the other can help him... Two people can resist an attack that would defeat one person alone. A rope made of three cords is hard to break." (Ecclesiastes 4:9) – The Purpose Driven Life

Stereotyped looks

ALONE, I WAS ABOUT to eat my lunch at the eatery located at the back of the Hotel New Arirang, the eventual campus of Pines International Academy, Clark. Yet before doing so, I paused in front of the huge golden mirror, hanged on the wall near the restrooms.

I saw two of my co-trainees passing by my back – Teacher Emerald and Teacher Jen. I tried to smile at them; yet I noticed they are prolifically talking. I also conjectured, perhaps, they are going to that eatery. So I just let them go there first because I’m used to being alone.

The day typhoon Emong’s coming

“THIS EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN HAS no solution, I suppose. I’ll never get over it unless I wake up one day feeling very tired,” I said.

“Just pray. God looks at the heart,” he said.

“I believe in Him – he has been blessing me,” I answered.

“Call upon His name Jesus,” he replied.

I’m afraid of liars…

IT’S DIFFICULT TO TRUST. It’s hard to speculate about the truth with no assurance. It hurts to find out that the person whom I trust the most is not worth it…

Oftentimes, when people lie to us, it’s annoying that we want to kill!

The public apology

SOMETIMES, I’M LIKE AN airplane – the journey towards your destination may not always be flowing smoothly. There may be some abrupt turbulence, causing you motion discomfort. Or perhaps, as I’ve mentioned in a text message, I may be a shopping mall under construction – there may be some inconvenient areas…

No matter which analogy you prefer more, there’s only one truth behind them: you would have to bear with me because I’m not perfect.

The legendary LD

LAWDENMARC Y. DECAMORA WAS a former senior editor of mine. There were two of them actually – He is with Melford Cunanan.

I recall LD always uses profound thoughts in writing. At first, I thought he is just fond of highfaluting words until I’ve realized that even owning my handy dictionary will not suffice for me to parallel his style – his thoughts are very profound; not just from the usage of ostentatious English words but from the mere thoughts themselves.

Now, he is already a Law student in The University of Santo Tomas in Manila. Perhaps, he has a very hectic schedule in studying that’s why he texts very seldom.
The most recent message, which he sent me, was this:

The fright from feeling better

I’M FEELING BETTER TODAY. Yet, I’m so afraid… afraid that the reason of this temporary improvement in my emotion is brought by the same reason, which breaks my sentiments into shattered glasses…

The probable rationale behind my depression

“MY EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN, I suppose, is not rooted from an unanswered wish – the lord is blessing me, I believe… Perhaps, only perhaps, one day, I’ll realize that my emotional breakdown comes from the mystery that people have their next life. If there’s a next life, there’s a second chance… But in Christianity, that thought is extremely falsified!”

The daggers in the mannequin’s chest

BEFORE, I’M LIKE A mannequin – I walk with no tiredness, my emotions are stiff, my sentiments are as hard as marble. My eyes are blunt; my heart feels no beating except the rhythmic pattern of breathing for the sake of existing. These are the days when people used to reckon me as a Superhuman

Those days are gone, I presume. Yet, this has nothing to do with my bad experiences, which I wrote in my article “Vomiting”; it’s different.

The essence of lending clothes

WHEN I LEND MY clothes, it’s because I want that person to experience the same glamour that these clothes bring to the wearer.

Regaining ten pounds

YESTERDAY, I SLEPT FOR a couple of hours after eating my post work-out meal. Then, I woke up, ate my lunch, took a bath, and had my appointment with Pamela and Mitz (the incoming EIC and ME of the Pioneer respectively). Mitz treated us in McDonald’s so I ate again, of course…

After finishing the agenda of our meeting, it rained so hard as if the raindrops were daggers striking on the rooftop. I struggled in the rain without an umbrella. I passed by the Carmelite Monastery. I’ve hesitated to go down because of the unfair weather; however, I felt like Someone was calling me in that old building – a voice that I’ve never heard for the past few weeks of my life…

Bringing back not the missing burger in my orifice…

THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING! I checked my weight this morning after working out – the scale says I’m 120 lbs.

How could that be? It’s astonishing!

Before, I weighed 130 lbs after getting stressed by my workloads for thesis and The Pioneer. Now, I lost another 10 lbs for a rationale I can’t explain! Is this a sequel of my nightmare or a side-effect of my recent emotional breakdown, which I still can’t tell if I’ve already recovered from it or not?

The fortuneteller’s failure keeps on destructing me…

I'LL NEVER FORGET THE day when even the soothsayer failed to foretell the harm you might bring...

I still don't know you -- I don't know the family where you come from, the secrets you are concealing and the hidden agendas you are planning for...

What an “ideal person” is?

ABRUPTLY, CARREN SENT ME a text message, asking me what an ideal woman should be. At first, I told her, “maputi, black hair, mahabang buhok, medyo boyish pero maarte at mahilig magpowder…” (Very ironic)

The day I tried to be simple and went to a soothsayer in “Apu”

“MADAMING BABAENG MAY GUSTO sa’yo. Yung isa, hinihintay ka niya ang tagal na. Mahal na mahal ka niya at handa siyang maghintay sa’yo ng matagal. Mabait siya pero medyo naiinis lang siya sa’yo pero ewan ko kung bakit…”

I went to a soothsayer in “Apu” for the first time. It was for some reasons I can’t debouch but these are the clear-cut words that she told me as I recall.

The fate of the two guys in the planet of the “Hypercriticals”

I SHALL REVEAL A secret: There are two guys who happen to feel comfortable with each other. They call themselves “FC” (A colloquial Filipino term for “Feeling close” – which means they feel at ease with each other even though they still don’t know each other so well).

Some people say their features have some resemblance; yet others disagree…

Stranded

IT WAS RAINING HEAVILY. April’s gradation party took place in Florida – a very far-flung land from the City of San Fernando…

Mitch, Apple and I attended the celebration at April’s house.

For certain reasons our arrival to Florida, as well as our departure from the area, was delayed. However, we were never stranded.

The rainy year for the Dragons

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL GRADUATES this year. Most of us are born in 1988 – the year of the dragon. They say we are very fortunate…

Do you believe in that?

****

This year, the College of Nursing in AUF, the university where I am studying and soon to be graduating (tomorrow), has the biggest number of graduates. Proudly speaking, lesser students were demoted and kicked out from the college compared to former years.

The best weapons against pride

TRY TO BE SWEET and kindhearted – doing so will make even pride itself to bow down on his knees, asking for forgiveness.

The catastrophe after the lightning

IT WAS A RASPING thunder that came after the sound of the exploding fuse in our computer’s adaptor – We were all flabbergasted!

The sun was scorching an hour ago. Afterwards, the rain began falling gently like droplets of water, splattering upon the plants.

Dette, my sister, turned on the desktop computer because she needed to text her friend, who will go with her in the baptism of the child of one of their office mates, with Chika. Even before the operating system of the computer has utterly started, the computer abruptly shut down.

A text message from Carren Bondoc

I AM IMPRESSED BY Carren’s message; however, I don’t know if she’s the one who made it or not… Here it is:

****

My name is Gossip. I have no respect for justice. I maim without killing. I break hearts and ruin lives. The more I am quoted, the more I am believed.
My victims are helpless. They cannot protect themselves against me because I have no name and no face.

Two ladies, one face

WITH THE CHILD-LIKE EXPRESSION on her face, she said, “Mahirap lang po kami.”

Then, she smiled…

One afternoon when I ushered for the play titled “The Fantasticks”, I’ll always recall how that child-like girl answered to me when I offered her the souvenir programs for fifty pesos.

I used to abhor her for the aura she had been exuding. That day, however, I realized she poles apart. Perhaps, she’s not the stern-looking version who I’ve used to pass by with along the corridors. She looks very eleemosynary. (Or perhaps, I’m just misinterpreting the other one…)

My proxy parents and new nick name; my polo and contact lenses

MY MOTHER DECIDED NOT to attend to the Vaya con Dios since she supposes that attendance would only become a must if there’s an awarding ceremony involved....

So, Robert just attended with his friend who is his classmate in college and in high school – Christof.

The intriguing Photojournalism Magazine!

YESTERDAY, TIM TOLD ME, “Nasaan ang magazine natin sa photojourn?

I answered, “Ewan. Bakit, napass na ba?”

He said, “Oo! Gusto kong makita! Ang ganda-ganda nga daw eh! Si Ma’am Virgie naimpressed! Proud nga daw siya, sabi niya!”

I said, “Ah… okay.” Then I smiled in ignorance…

A feeling I can’t hide…

I’VE BEEN TRYING TO hide this feeling; however, I can’t! I must say this, or else, I might burst…

Whew! I’m exhausted! I just got home this evening and my mind is bemused!

Vomiting: My peculiar sentiment was like my sickness yesterday…

IT WAS LIKE A FIERY million-degrees Celsius body temperature mixed with uneasy feelings all over my body – I thought I would die….

“I am not capable of loving,” I always say, especially when the topic falls under romantic love. I suppose not everyone in this world needs someone to share his sentiments with. Not everyone likes to see a text message in his cell phone asking, “Kumain ka na?” or “What ginagawa mo?” and the like…

As well, I never believed that I should give too much concern for others. I love the word “I” more than “you” and “us”. I love to cosset my self – purchase my needs, follow my desires, and do what I have to in order to live. The best person to love is, of course, my self. I seldom get emotionally attached with people.

Password-protected

What secrets do you conceal in your account at friendster.com?

OBSTINATELY SPEAKING, WHEN WE try to open others’ account on the internet, we get blocked by the “incorrect password-sign” flashing on the monitor. But is it really wrong to be naughty at times if it is fulfilling to learn how others “utilize” their account in the on-line social sites like friendster.com? On the optimistic view of it, perhaps, the discovery would be worth the feistiness….

The lesbian and the “policewoman”

“If she were a thief, she would have fallen for the policewoman who shot her…”

SLOWLY, THEIR LIPS TUSSLE. Being consumed by the fire in their bodies, they nuzzle, snuggle ‘till they unclad. They succumb to the bed with skin next to each other, finding nirvana on Earth amid all the worldly confusions. But they are both women in silky hair and sexy lingerie, and they’ve had a story that has been untold…

There was one afternoon in Nepo Mall when a brunette-haired woman knelt down, and then entangled the extricated shoelace of a lady. The latter was about a year younger than her, hair was black and spliced like a Chinese star on TV, wearing Chuck Taylor’s, and having a powdered-white face with astounding features. The former also offered her hanky to the beautiful lady when sauce smeared upon her chops while eating fish ball. Then, she coddled her while fixing her ruined hair.

When walls DON’T become alive…

“I unlocked a secret door...Would you believe that I saw the living walls?”Al Christopher Mendoza in “When walls become alive…”

MY STORY ABOUT THE walls becoming alive pertains to this thought:

Gossiping is truly an inevitable human phenomenon. When they say, “It is just between you, me and the walls,” be careful, because with one slip, your secret shall remain secret only in your memory. When you open the door of trust, beware of whom you share the key with, because the walls might steal it when they become alive! Or who knows? The ones you trust might be the living walls themselves...

Pit bull Confessions

CANDIDLY, I CONFESS THAT I heard there’s an honest politician who hired a lawyer to help him deal with politics. The former, however, is unaware of this purulent veracity: His lawyer is corrupt. People already tried to topple his administration because of his lawyer; still, they failed. The admin is unflinching.

I, conversely, confess too that I know a smartalec professor who plays favoritism in class. He chooses his pet and prefers those who give him presents (”expected-surprise gifts” that would make him smirk). However, one of his student-pets is a backstabber – when the professor is out, the student becomes a dog, biting its master’s pillow. Also, the student never timely submits projects and asks the professor to extend the deadline. The professor can’t oppose.

Somewhere in the Mind

“To balance a message with views of thy self, and place it on a scale in the mind…”

IT IS EXACTLY 10AM. You’ve been waiting more than an hour for a seminar that was supposed to begin at 8. Then the first speaker comes. He is wearing an odd coat made up of tweeds and tattered wools. He begins speaking… then he finishes his talk with the statement, “Students today don’t know how to think, read, and write!” Would you agree with him? Come to think of it…

If there is one universal truth in the world, that is, people judge the messages they receive. How do I know? Social Judgment Theory tells me so. Once people receive messages, they weigh its content based on their own opinion. If their opinion is the opposite of the message, it falls in the Latitude of Rejection. Meanwhile, if their opinion shares the same views of the message, it falls under Latitude of Acceptance. Or what if they don’t bother to care? Well, that would fall under the Latitude of Non-Commitment, or the Neutral Latitude.

Dewdrops what?

A FRIEND OF MINE sent me a text message. He said, “Dewdrops yung cologne mo no” (Please don’t notice the punctuation errors since it’s just a text message).

I replied, “Sino, ako?”

He said, “Naamoy ko kasi sa polo mo.”

I contradicted. I don’t use cologne; I use perfume.

I remember I lent this friend my polo. However, as far as I know, that polo had already been hand-washed. So, I conjectured that he might have been doubting my honesty that it had been washed before I lent it to him. I asked him but he denied.

The debut

GOOD LUCK TO THE person who shall carry my semi-formal polo adorned with blue stripes and unique contour of a uniquely designed frontal pocket.

Just be careful – one of its buttons, near the mid-section, is “drooping”…

Lending my clothes…

I DON’T LEND MY clothes to anyone. Today, however, I did. Perhaps, it’s because the borrower is someone I reckon as my closest bother…

Academic stress

AFTER THE LONG SUFFERING, after languishing the heat I encounter along the road, after of traversing from one building to another, after printing multitudinous copies of my documents, after revising and revising over and over again, finally…

I’m close to passing my thesis writing subject.

From April and Mitch

(Picture to follow because of hectic schedule)

THIS WAS THE GIFT I received for my 21st birthday from April and Mitch. They handed it to me last night.

Memoirs of Fontana



I FINALLY GOT A copy of my pictures in Fontana, back in the Pioneer’s Culmination event....

Recharging the battery instead of eating

MY MANDARIN CLASS WAS finally dismissed. I went to Chowking-AUF to eat my dinner. But I was invited by myself to sit for awhile because I’ve read a text message…

Abruptly, I was smiling.

Journey to and experience in Fontana

THE INNOVA WAS RUNNING along the highway with moderate alacrity. However, we were already near Clark until I received a text message saying, “Kua Al, saan po magkikita kita?”

I was flabbergasted!

I recall Mr. Robert Rivera was with me a moment ago in the plant-box, near the stone benches. Yet, I left him unknowingly because I was busy with other matters regarding the event…

Foods for everyone

THERE WERE TABLES ADORNED with red and white linen. There were waiters to serve the beef and the vegetables. There were bottles of sodas prepared for all. Tayid-tayid09 could have been as awe-inspiring as it can be.

Precious gifts

IT WAS A SET OF gifts. There was a jet-black leather bag, a white pouch covered with black lace, a grayish silver version of the former, and some purple, and gold combinations of the latter. These were for the panelists…

Today is the panel interview of those who are applying for the next Pioneer Editorial Board. I bought tokens for the panelists whom I thought are all females. So, I bought bags and pouch for all of them. There was Ma’am Tina, Ma’am Gwen, a representative for the Guidance & Counseling Office, and a representative from the CCF – it was Sir Pines!

Annoying routines

IT FRUSTRATES ME SO much when I had to absent my self in the gym. If I continue from not exercising, my body would sag!

A rare fact about friendship from me…

THERE IS ONE THING about friendship that I believe in: Be true to your friends who, conversely, may not be true to you.

Mandarin Classes

TONIGHT, I’VE HAD MY foremost Mandarin sessions. It’s scheduled from 5 pm to 9 pm. This kind of set-up would last until April 2, 2009. The Chinese teachers taught us many Chinese translations for English words and expressions like “sorry”, “you’re welcome”, “thank you”, “good afternoon”, “good morning”, “good evening”, “good night”, “good bye” and many more.

The dream

I WONDER WHY MELFORD, my former senior editor (with LD), did not reply last night to my message when I told him my recent dream, which was about the three of us with Mitch. I thought there will be a gap between us. I realized, perhaps, he is conservative. But then, I remember he isn’t like that.

How to make people guilty of false defamation?

IF YOU WANT TO make people culpable from defaming you, be true to those people who are true to you. So that when people blacken your reputation, your conscience remains clean despite all lies…

What is humanistic with fear?

THERE’S ONE ABOUT FEAR that I believe in: If you fear, it only means you can relate with people easily because you know how the majority feels. You should know that if you fear, it only means that you’re human. Thus, it makes you more fitted to be a student leader, serving as Public Relation Officer

Debates and scriptwriting in a general assembly

THE CROWD WAS PIERCING and there was a contour of students seated on the bleachers and the plastic chairs. I sat on the bleachers, joined my classmates arrayed with the BS Psychology students of Arts and Sciences. I dislike making a “grand entrance” if I walk through the center aisle towards the front-most chair, so I just sat there silently…

I arrived late for the CAS general assembly.

Attempted murder

THE CLOCK WAS TICKING. The door was closed. However, I turned the knob, and then there was clank. I ambled towards the study table where a person was sitting. I should’ve taken out my knife, held it using my right hand, reversely from my thumb’s side; it should’ve been in an offensive position. Then, I would’ve had seen him/her there: preparing some documents to be presented in front of the board or a certain committee. I would’ve had stabbed him/her before he/she had presented those documents on the subsequent morning. I swear!

Photocopy imbeciles

PEOPLE WHO DO NOT know the difference of a photocopy to an original one are brainless. Conversely, those who think that they can fool me that a photocopy is an original copy are such imbeciles!

Happenstances and unearthing

EVERYONE ELSE SEEMED FACELESS. I was getting hold of a 10-peso coin from my purse to pay my jeepney fare. Abruptly, this familiar woman in a teacher’s uniform emerged from my vision. Her skin was brown, her forehead was diminutively oversized, her posture was low but her eyes were raging with pride…

“Ay Ma’am!” I hollered. “Kayo po pala…” I continued.

Cat’s eye starting on the 1st of March


THIS CAT IS NOT LOOKING for a mouse to devour; it is looking for a cat to play with. It does so by having a cat’s eye.

The sleeve-splitting arms

IF YOU’RE A WORK-OUT aficionado who just can’t impede doing barbell and dumb bell curls, pull-ups, and dips, then you might own the sleeve-splitting set of biceps and triceps.

Barbell curl is an exercise done by lifting a barbell of the appropriate weight from a standing position. Gripping it on both sides, putting your arms in a “curled position”, and retrieving it back repeatedly will complete the barbell curl exercise. The difference of this exercise from the dumbbell curl is that the latter uses an individual dumbbell (the smaller ones) for each arm, which may be performed alternately.

A lesson for tonight

ONE LESSON I HAVE learned in my life, as of 11:58 pm, is…

“Not all altruistic people are repaid with good rewards. Being kind doesn’t ensure you a good karma.”

Sublimation as a Defense Mechanism

AT SOME POINT OF a person’s desire for sex, comes sublimation - transforming of an unacceptable impulse, whether it be sex, anger, fear, or whatever, into a socially acceptable, even productive form, this is according to Sigmund Freud.

The Social Learning Theory

“…FROM OBSERVING OTHERS ONE forms an idea of how new behaviors are performed, and on later occasions this coded information serves as a guide for action.” – Albert Bandura

This concept was formalized by the said source in his Social Learning Theory, which states that "Learning would be exceedingly laborious, not to mention hazardous, if people had to rely solely on the effects of their own actions to inform them what to do. Fortunately, most human behavior is learned observationally through modeling” (Bandura, 1977).

A lost actor

“THERE COMES A POINT in many people's lives when they can no longer play the role they have chosen for themselves. When that happens, they are like actors finding that someone (who) has changed the play.”- Brian Moore

Suicidal week

THIS WEEK, I WILL work on my thesis in order to submit it on the 27th of February.

Certificate and new contact lenses


JUST LIKE THE OCEAN reflecting the cerulean sky, my new contact lenses from Ideal Vision are three-toned that the most dominant one among the tones, perhaps, is blue (because it’s what the label indicates).

Tumblebugs and Diablo


I’VE BEEN PLAYING A computer game almost the entire day since I got home. I tried playing Tumblebugs. I know I’m too late to learn this for now; however, it isn’t arduous to learn the rules. I, somehow, discharged my stress by playing it.

I remember the last time I’ve ever played in a computer was when I was in Grade school. I was playing Diablo back then…

Uncertainty for my absence in OSCAS Night

THERE WILL BE LIGHTS flashing a prism-like brilliance. There will be emotions beating with the tempo of the dance. Tables shall be adorned with white linens and could, perhaps, also be festooned with balloons. I’ve always loved to attend parties like this one. But tonight, in our college night, I’m certain that I can’t make it; however, I’m uncertain of the reasons….

Annoying photo shoots

I WAS ACTUALLY TARDY for my photo shoot. I didn’t know that today would be the picture-taking for TOS winners and finalists. We had it in the AVR. When I arrived, it was Gypsy’s turn. Then I left for some moments and when I returned, it was my turn after Joejit’s (the USC President).

Gypsy said, “Oy yan si Al, magaling mag-emote sa picture yan… tignan mo man yung friendster niya.”

Confessions of a TOS finalist

I NEVER PLANNED TO join the Search for The Outstanding Students of AUF. If I won, I could have been like Zhang Ziyi in Memoirs of Geisha – everything was only fortuitous and I will get the heart of the panel by my charisma. If I lost, I could have been like Gong Li in the same movie – someone dethroned despite all approbations…

I’ve been thinking about this ever since I entered TOS. And I was bamboozled… Who among these characters will I play?

Where would be the next Luzonwide press con?

I RECEIVED THE NEWS this morning that the next Luzonwide press con will be in Pagudpud, Ilocos…
This very thrilling! I’ve always sought going to Pagudpud too. Well, just like in Palawan, there are beaches in Pagudpud. Anywhere where water and Earth meet is a place for my relaxation; I consider the beach as my Nirvana.

What is a “power statement”?

A “POWER STATEMENT” IS A statement that communicates important information about you in a short amount of time. It emphasizes the value you can bring to an organization, which will cause you to leave a powerful impression. (SOURCE: A hand-out from a seminar awhile ago.)

Mostly, this kind of statement is used when you are applying for a job, or any sort of interview for an award or so. It can be stated by saying your skills, strength and accomplishments, which you want to highlight in relation to your objectives. Then you’ll be giving specific examples of that skill. State the results of that skill, and then make sure that the statement matches the needs or goals of the organization.

The moment of Truth

THIS WEEK, FORD SAID, might be the announcement of the awardees of The Outstanding Students (TOS) in AUF in diverse categories like Leadership, Journalism, Community Service, Performing Arts, Science and Technology, Christian Formation, and Loyalty. The secondly mentioned category is where I am competing in. No matter what the result will be, I’ll be ready to accept it because I never planned for this!

Tamilok, seafoods, and my self

DURING OUR FIRST NIGHT in Palawan, we ate at Kinabuch’s, which is a bistro in Puerto Princesa that serves exotic food. The best among the rest is tamilok, a kind of worm that is found in mangroves. The worst part is that they actually serve it raw!

My colleagues tried the delicacy – Pamela, April, Mitch, Tim, Genesis, Michelin and Ma’am Tina (our adviser in The Pioneer). They actually confessed that they felt as if they ingested bottles of San Miguel Light.

Mitz (Michelin) said it flavors like oyster that has a wood-like after-taste that when you burp, you feel like you’ve eaten wood over and over again. Everyone else concurred. Most of them got dizzy. Some of them wanted to vomit.

After-interview shock

THERE WAS TURBULENCE IN the plane during the flight. Perhaps, it’s because it was trapped in a sort of cumulus/nimbus cloud or so… I thought it might be a hopeless, dying scene. But then I’ve realized it’s just normal....

I already had an early flight back to Manila for my scheduled interview for TOS in AUF. During my first interview, I flunked. But this time, I suppose I’m better…

A Palawan-day wish list

TODAY, I'VE FINALIZED A list of my current wishes, which I’ve gathered in my mind the whole day...

1. I wish people who sardonically laugh in the tricycle would wobble on the back-ride and then they would fall from their seat so they will suffer a conked cranium!

The man with his three faces


THIS PHOTOGRAPH IS A symbolism of my current emotions: I’m excited, I’m nervous, and I am stressed! I am excited because I’m going to Palawan today. I’m nervous because I’ll be reciting the Code of the Campus Journalist in front of a crowd tonight at the seminar in the said place. I am stressed because of some “exhausting flight-plane-ticket reasons”.

Annoyance in conversations

OFTENTIMES, MY FOREMOST ALLERGIC reaction is when people holler at me. Some people love to correct me by defending their facts that are can even mislead us because they are more erroneous. Others are fond to instruct me with the pitch of their voice rising as if they know what they are discussing even though they know nothing.

How can shopping cause stress?

TODAY, I CAME FROM SM City Clark where I bought my Belo Set of Starwhite skin whitening products. Then, I bought swimwear at Bench, and then a castor at the SM Department Store, and then a soap case at Watson’s and then a white, long-sleeved shirt, accenting a V-line upon its neck, at folded&hung.

Memoirs of R18

CRYSTAL LIGHTS WERE HANGING from the ceiling, reflecting a prism of diamond-like brilliance. Balloons were festooned on the stage, fronting sets of chairs and tables, which were adorned with linens, for a supposed-to-be-big audience. The audience, however, wasn’t that big… It was never big. If it was, then we might have been hallucinating....

R18 was a concert organized by Cram Productions. This production team is composed of everyone in the ABMC IV class batch 08-09. It was headed by Edwin de Leon with Gypsy Salazar and Michelle Ann Frazier; all of them are my classmates.

Selective exposure and the hindrance to the Palawan trip

SOMETIMES, WHEN PEOPLE TALK, they try to make a one-sided impression....

To pursue this trip to Palawan of chosen staff in The Pioneer, I’ve had many hardships before I finalized its assurance. I’ve been scolded by the administration for omitting one of our signatories in the letter for disbursements; I’ve had dilemmas regarding the plane tickets, and oodles of other encumbrances.

However, the most arduous part is this: My Palawan days will be on February 11-14. Forlornly, my interview for TOS-AUF for Journalism (The Outstanding Student of AUF for the Category Journalism) has been scheduled on February 13. So my interview date coincides with one of these days.

What Mitch learned from us?

SHE USED TO ABHOR the Asian’s "ese-food"!

Mitch is my fellow editor in The Pioneer. She has a black American blood that makes her skin black. However, her tone isn't exactly the burnt black type; her melanin seems to have lessened diminutively if juxtaposed to pure black Americans. Her hair is also curly just like convoluted noodles. Yet she's neither fond of eating Japanese nor Chinese food. She abhors eating at restaurants, which serve food of that kind.

The yellow banana and the brown monkey

HAVE YOU SEEN A gay couple wherein one of them is dark brown while the other is yellow in skin tone? Well, I know such an uncanny-looking couple with such skin colors-combination. I often relate the yellow guy to a banana and the brown guy to a monkey.

When I see them, I call them the “monkey-banana partners”!

The deleted part in the essay

THE ITALICIZED PART IN the paragraph below was the part, which Ma’am Elvi asked me to remove because it ruins the essence and the seriousness of my essay.

Why be excellent and outstanding?

MA’AM ELVI, OUR COLLEGE Secretary and Assistant Dean, told me yesterday that my essay was well-written; that it has no grammar errors and the thoughts are coherent. (This is different from the essay yesterday.) However, she advised me to delete some parts, which ruin the quintessence of my strongly heartrending article.

The essay question is “What is the significance of excellence and being outstanding in today’s society?”

Below is my essay answer…

My "Personality Sketch" for TOS application

TODAY, I’VE MELTED WITH how Ma’am Elvi Balinas extolled the “Personality Sketch” I’ve written and submitted for TOS application. Actually, people encouraged me to apply for this although I’m not confident about my self because I’m not a connoisseur speaker when it comes to answering to interviews. (Well, this has an interview part.)

However, Ma’am Elvi’s accolade encouraged me more. She praised my article and told me that I’m really a writer. (In my term, I call it “certified writer”!)

Below is the article she praised. (It has no title actually…)

How to make Heart’s month happy

TODAY LAUNCHES THE MONTH of February. Thirteen days to go, it would be Valentine’s Day. Isn’t it anxiety-causing to think that most “normal people” (in my term, I call them “common”) would need a date during that day? Or how about the flower-giving? If you’re a woman, isn’t it dulcet to hear a delivery boy on your door telling, “Flower delivery for Ms so and so…”? If you’re a man, isn’t it laudatory if you’ll have a flower delivery too, which has been paid by a gay admirer or stalker or whatever?

Well, I suppose these things are dulcet and very flattering!

However, you should remember that you must be “attractive”. In the Philippine scenario, being attractive is being white. Conversely, getting whiter is oftentimes synonymous with costly. But this does not apply in all whitening products.

Gee, I recall that in Mai Salon – a salon nearby AUF – a papaya soap would cost Php90.00. And that’s just a soap. A classmate of mine vends it for about Php50.00 lower.

But if you’ll purchase it to me, it’s only Php38.00! Presenting…

The Beache Beauty Bar! This is a facial and body soap. It whitens the skin to a luminous complexion. It obliterates pimples and blemishes too.



The Narra medal


MY SISTER SENT ME an email. I asked her to send it because I’ll be using its attachments. It contains two photographs, one of which was the medal I earned from a feature writing contest when I visited Tuguegarao.

The Day My Mother Disposed the Oven Toaster

LIKE A MADLY-DRIVEN ANDROID, the policeman who was safeguarding a certain street in the city shouted at a driver. He almost gnashed his teeth when the latter parked his vehicle in front of a mall. Then, the policeman whacked the side of the vehicle that the passengers felt the impact of his steel baton-like hand against it. I knew that because I felt the impact too.

The policeman, obviously, was blown up in his madness. Is it right to whack the vehicle to the extent that the passengers will feel the impact? I suppose it’s not. I know it’s normal for a policeman to be strict and possess the commanding tone in his voice.

The “half dog”


THIS HALF-SLICED HOTDOG WAS our snacks yesterday during our retreat. It was thriftily drizzled with a mixture of ketchup and mayonnaise, stuffed in a typically-sized pair of half-sliced bread.

The new spelling of “exhausted”

IN ORDER TO ACCOMPLISH your TOS (The Outstanding Students) requirements, you would have to dash after every student and every professor and almost everyone who you need recommendation letters from. Then you would have to fill-in forms and you would have to defray for requests on records or certificates of moral character and so and so... In order to do that, you would have to climb the stairs from 1st floor to 4th floor and vice versa. You would have to print your curriculum vitae, which you would have to photocopy and distribute to those who you would want to believe in your skills (NOTE: This is a scenario seen on most students but not all).

Rasante

RASANTE – THE PHOTO LIGHTING, in which there are two strong opposing lights where the shifting is apparently seen like when the half of the face is so dark, while the other is so bright. (SOURCE: My brain that has processed data from a free photography seminar I recently attended.)

I forgot to tell Madame Ambassador that…

THE ACCOLADE THAT THE ambassador told me could have earned me a new career, I suppose. (Conversely, it increased my confidence regardless if it’s true or false.) However, I’m not the type who’s predisposed with the gift of public relation (PR). I don’t know how to acquire those skills to respond, with either verbal or non-verbal cues, to the behaviors and opinions of people in a juncture, occasion and the like.

Just as when someone tells you, “You’re hair looks terrific!” You may either say, “You’re joking but thank you!” or “It’s not on its pinnacle yet…”

French’s Mr. Photogenic?

“THIS TYPE OF FACE is the photogenic face for the French people… you stand out,” said Madame Ambassador as she was pointing to my face, which has blunt expressions.

My main point in feature writing

THE MOST PRECISE GUIDELINE in feature writing is that “it is to write in one’s own style.” After all, a “good article” is just a matter of perception (provided that there are no grammar errors).

Al Chris’ version of a gay-girl dialogue

ONCE UPON A TIME, a girl fell in love for a gay lover who she thought she can actually transform to a real man. This is not a fairy tail but a true story in AUF and I actually know the characters.

I even heard rumors saying the gay guy already confessed everything to this girl, even his sexual preference; thus the girl already entrusted her heart to him. However, their “relationship” (it shouldn’t even be called like that) lasted only for a second just like a drinking glass shattered against a concrete wall. The girl’s heart was broken, sardonically speaking.

With that, I just formulated my own dialogue-story, which I hope will make all gay men ponder about what they are doing with girls....

Unlicensed

PASSING THROUGH THE DUSTY track to leave the gym premise, I amble as I stoop my head to avoid conversing from a far-flung aloofness. Then, few steps nearer to the old-aged table at the gate, I look up and flash my unfeigned boyish grin.

“Sige po Kuya, alis na po ako,” I say to the security guard of the RONGUI Building where my gym is located.

Then, I receive a feedback. “Sige, ingat,” says Kuya as he salutes with the eleemosynary expression on the planes of his face, which is weather-beaten as if he is bushed but keeps on living to earn his being. His grizzled hair is also thinning that it means he has long been aging.

Congratulations to Kristinne Anne Perez Felix!

I WAS APPREHENSIVE TO converse in public but I subjugated my fear, simulating as if the crowd was faceless, for the sake that I could impart something I conceal within…

In front of the raucous high school horde, I was a guest speaker for the second time this morning. (Last year, I was also the speaker for the same category.)

I hurriedly discussed feature writing because a speaker is supposed to finish in thirty minutes. I assiduously tried to thrash out all the things I want to say; however, I suppose I FAILED! (The time is not enough.)

Afterward, there was a mini workshop-slash-contest for the category, which I’ll be judging. The topic I gave was “The most beautiful person I ever saw” and it should be done in 15 minutes plus a 3-minute extension.

Then the results came…

So I would like to congratulate the writer who I declared as winner of the contest. She’s from Mary Help of Christians School. Below is her winning article.

If not because of me…

MOST PEOPLE DON'T UNDERGO the things I am going through. Most people don't do the things I do. Some of these "most" even have the nerve to scrutinize me when things aren't "too much" for them - they are not contented with "enough"...

Wearing jacket every day

THE TEMPERATURE DROPPED DOWN recently… It’s not alarming; it’s amusing!

I’ve been wearing jackets these past few days because the climate has been chilly. In Baguio City, it has been reported that the temperature dropped down to 7.5-degrees Celsius. In Pampanga, I don’t know exactly the temperature. I just suppose that it’s cold enough for me to stop perspiring even if I wear layers of clothing.

The first-ever kojic acid soap…


THIS SOAP IS THE first-ever kojic acid soap… No, no, no! I’m not saying it’s the first one ever manufactured in the history of the galaxy; it’s just that it’s the first-ever kojic acid soap I’ve sold in the time of my being....

Kojic acid soap is known for its pulchritudinous benefits to the skin. It can moisturize dry skin without having to clog your pores so it won’t turn your skin sebaceous. (The thought of "skin-moisturizing" is according to the unreliable label of a certain brand, which I am not selling.) It aids in skin exfoliation for skin renewal and removal of dead skin cells. Thus, it helps whiten your skin.

What’s infuriatingly iniquitous?

THERE ARE COUNTLESS THINGS that are infuriatingly iniquitous. One of them is when you make a clear deal with people who you’re actually helping to get something they want; yet they still don’t do their part in order to materialize it…

Are you one of them? If yes, then I tell you this:

The mare: Just a mistress (The truth about yesterday’s horses)

WE CROSSED THE FREEZING city of Angeles and arrived at the zero-degree savannah of Clark after taking photos of diverge views in an unknown park and window-shopping at the Oriental Mall while others fritter.

And then there we arrived…

The El Kabayo is a location in Clarkfield Pampanga where there are horses. (From the word itself, “kabayo” is the Filipino word for “horse”.) In here, we met two horse attendants who were wearing MP4 earphones hanging upon their ears.

Running with horses

HOW DOES IT FEEL to dash with horses like the ones in the photo? I suppose that would be very exasperating – just like yesterday…

Workloads yesterday were very exasperating too! (Running from the Accounting and Finance Office to the Multi Media Center and Publications’ Office just to request for a budget disbursement that has to be fixed sooner to defray a flight to Palawan, which has already been reserved and should be paid on the other day, and then climbing through the overpass just to traverse from one building – or campus – to another… and more, more, and more – a thousand “mores”!)

It came back…


MIRACULOUSLY, I FOUND MY dream-catcher, which I reported lost in my former article in this blog! The lesson learned:

Dark-brown monkeys shouldn’t speak English!

OFTENTIMES, WHEN OTHERS TRY cumbrously to converse English, they overlook the mirror. Why? Well, because their language doesn’t just jibe with their skin-color….

Mariah Carey once quoted that Regine Velasquez is a “monkey”. Regine is a Filipino, we all know that. Analogously speaking, Mariah juxtaposed a Filipino with a monkey.

Is this a stress-causing genus?


RECENTLY, A FRIEND OF mine saw a white particle in my hair strand. I don’t know what it is; however, it looks like a wax that had turned into a thread, which was spliced with a one of my ash-blond hair strands. As if it was formerly a non-living creature that acquired life by being a parasite, which scrounges the proteins in my hair.

ESET is no longer number 1?

PROUDLY SPEAKING, THE ESET Smart Security and NOD32 Antivirus have been awarded by the AV Comparatives.org as “The Best Antivirus in Proactive Detection” for 2008. This award goes to the antivirus that can detect threats even before they get recorded in their virus definition database. ESET is the only one among 16 antivirus softwares that has been awarded with the “Advanced+” for detecting unknown threats (click here to see the proof).

However, there is just something with further results that is simply obnoxious…

Presenting the literary folio of…


BEHOLD THE LITERARY FOLIO of The Pioneer! It is titled “Sari-sari store ni Apung Barang” – a collection of short stories and poems classified within different chapters named as follow:

kendi, delata, sitsirya, and iskul suplays

How to have a copy? Well, there are several ways...

How to produce a stylish bulletin board?

TWO DAYS AGO, I spearheaded the team who adorned the bulletin board of the Pioneer. That time, I thought of how to create a stylish bulletin board even if I am not that inclined with painting? Well, the way is very simple…

Contact the best artists in the organization. (In my case, I had Gian Paras and Justin Mandal – both of them are correspondents of The Pioneer.) Then if they ask you what the theme of the board is all about, simply say:

What’s alarming about ESET NOD32 v2.7?

THIS IS ALARMING! I inserted my USB into a virus-infected laptop. That laptop was the “organization’s laptop” of The Pioneer, which contains ten viruses as detected by ESET NOD32 version 3 in our desktop at home.

These are the ten viruses:

Not capable of loving…

I’LL NEVER FORGET WHAT Ruffa Gutierrez said in Desperadas 2. There, she plays the role of Isabela, a woman who tries assiduously to become adroit in managing her money. But what’s notable of her is that she’s not into earnest relationships, and she never bequeaths herself to love. Yes, she may have a lover, but she never confides her time to him. She’d rather have a fling instead…

Friends for sale in ukay-ukay

LONG AGO, I RECEIVED a message saying: Kung ang isang kaibigan ay maibebenta sa ukay-ukay, ibebenta kita sa halagang piso. Bakit? Para lahat magka-chance na makilala ang isang tunay na kaibigang tulad mo....

Isn’t that dulcet and bewitching? Well, I suppose it’s not.

The thought of that message says if a friend could be vended in an “ukay-ukay” – these are the stores that sell low-priced genuine goods because they are cast-off – then the sender would sell the recipient, who is supposed to be his/her friend, for as low as Php1.00 only. Why? So that everyone would afford to purchase that person thus everyone will have the chance to meet a very special, congenial and unfeigned friend like him/her.

My argument: Why would I vend my precious friends if I know there are oodles of people out there who are “USERS”?

Kismet

PEOPLE SAY THERE’S ALWAYS a right person out there for everyone, but I suppose mine got thwacked by a truck! Candidly, this thought was adopted from a text message I recently received. However, the words I used in this blog are expressed through my own style. (Did you notice my choice of word?)

Originally, the simple message was from Irish, a former classmate in BS Nursing. Now, she’s Magnolia’s best friend. I suppose they are classmates too.

From ESET Smart Security v3 to ESET NOD32 v2.7

AFTER AN HOUR-LONG DECISION-MAKING, I finally clinched to downgrade my ESET Smart Security version 3 to ESET NOD32 Antivirus version 2.7.
After all, it was an arduous decision!

ESET Smart Security version 3 is the new generation of NOD32 antivirus. It has a personal firewall and anti-spam module, plus all the features of ESET Nod32. (For the full features of ESET NOD32, Smart Security, and version 2.7 and 3 differences, please click in this hyperlink.) In my computer, it's going smoothly well that I don't have any problem about it.

What I like the most is the Advanced Heuristic, a feature that detects “threats” even before they get recorded into the database of the security center. NOD32 v2.7 also has that, actually.

Using the GUI of the v3, however, is so feasible. I feel like there is no thrill because I am overly protected even in the cyberspace (because I use the ESET Smart Security). As well, it is so beautiful with its sliced lime eyes icon and green appearance, just like this one:

Imbecilic god (Should it be with capital G?)

AMANG SUGA IS THE father of Sinukuwan and Magayon in the show Diyosa at ABS-CBN. The two are sisters who live in Kabanua, the equivalence of Heaven or Paradise in the story. Magayon is the antagonist while Sinukuwan is the protagonist.

Recently, however, Magayon and Sinukuwan had their physiques interchanged because Magayon used supernatural powers, which she acquired from the Aklat ng Propesiya (Book of Prophecy), to do so even without Sinukuwan’s will. Thus, Magayon, sojourning in the body of Sinukuwan, is able to hoodwink almost all and sundry except the characters in this list:

Restoring a dead exhaust fan

BEHOLD THE MIRACLE! FINALLY, I hear the thud of the exhaust fan in the laptop once again. In my recent blog (if you read it), I said that I presume the exhaust fan of the laptop is not working that’s why I bought a laptop cooler from CD-R King. Now, I don’t have to use the laptop cooler always because the fan is already functioning.

April’s new discovery

RECENTLY, APRIL DISCOVERED THAT the Temptation blusher she purchased from HBC could actually be something else. I remember April was not contented the morning she used that blusher because it didn’t turn out the way she expected it to be. However, few days ago, she sent me a message when she read my article in this blog that states she’s not so much happy about the outcome of the product after application. The message read: